I'm feeling sorry for myself right now. The fact that I'm always left out pisses me off. It's not like I don't try to make plans with people or anything, I do, and nothing ever works out. But then when a bunch of girls from my floor decide to go out to dinner because it's our last day of the first semester and another girls last day ever because she's dropping out, no one bothers to invite me. And these are girls that I hang out with around here and the one even KNEW I wasn't going home until tomorrow, I was talking to her today and she didn't even think to ask me. The least she could do was knock on my door and ask if I wanted to come or something, but no. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. People either just forget about me or don't want to hang out with me for some reason, and I don't see why. Even during Halloween I flat out told this one girl to tell me if they were doing anything because I wanted to do something, and then no one did, and everyone went out. Thanks. Maybe people think because I don't drink I won't want to go to parties or something, but I really don't care if other people are drinking. I don't know. Hopefully next term the one club I joined will finally be up and I can go there and ~make new friends~ or something. It just really makes me feel like a freaking loser, honestly. I'm completely missing out on the !university experience!
I also hate how casual it is. Like I found out this dinner thing when I went downstairs to get the pizza I ordered and saw the girl I was talking to earlier. She was all "oh it's so and so's last day so we're going out, we're thinking dinner" and I automatically go from oh hey how are you to oh I don't care anymore about your plans you're always telling me when they don't even involve me. Like I seriously can't care anymore. This has been happening since I met this girl. I used to be able to at least pretend I cared or was interested in what she was saying and now it's just like, oh, good for you. Just whatever. I can't wait for this year to be over so I can move into an apartment and hopefully have roommates that will actually include me in stuff.
Take a deep breath. Now rant about something.